Updated: Nov 22
Trauma led to me shutting down my creative side for many years.
For some strange reason adults don’t like it when kids poke at their wounds through the written word. I looked back recently at some of my creative writing back from my Primary School years, and I could very clearly see a shift from light to dark within my writing. At a young age, it became my way of trying to resolve my pain.
I was strongly discouraged from writing and speaking my truth.
At first it was suggested that I’m not good at English and grammar.
But this person didn't stop there. This was taken to the next level when they started to subtly degrade me when it came to any kind of success or happiness.
The thing is, it was so fricken subtle that I failed to recognise how much it was affecting me. This story started to become a part of me. I picked it up, and it walked with me for many years within my own heart and soul.
How dare I find success? How dare I be happy? How dare I speak my truth? How dare I be my own person?
What I have since realised is that these things are what the other person has always needed to resolve within themselves.
At some point these wounds were projected onto this person by another. I understand how they feel, which is what ended up allowing for me to forgive and release.
If we are a person who needs to resolve our pain via a creative outlet, but we are gaslighted by those around us to shut down this part of ourselves – this is not okay. It was never their place.
Thank you for reading. I wish you so many blessings.
~ Rachel Reeves
This content is created by Rachel Reeves, who has always been a deep thinker. She previously played the supporting role in the lives of those around her, and very much held back on sharing this gift fully with other's. This is Rachel stepping very much out of her comfort zone, into what she now knows to be her inner calling, and sharing her thoughts with the world.
This video and/or article is intended to support self-growth, but the information provided is to be taken as personal opinion only. Feel free to take what resonates, but use your own inner-wisdom and guidance when doing so -- you know yourself much better than anybody else ever will. The information provided is to be in no way regarded as Medical, Legal, or Financial Advice. Please seek professional advice where needed. Thank you.
I shut down my creative side for many years,
which was my way to protect those whom I love.
But writing was my first true love, so this ripped
me to shreds from the inside to the outside.
~ Rachel Reeves